I'm really confused... i tink there's sth in which i need to clarify with ur mum before she misunderstand me... but i donno how.. i will be in a lost, before i can say anything which is on my mind... I'm afraid to go for the next visit... i wont know how to face her... i'm utterly sorry about it.... I understand wat she's trying to mean, is jus that i've nv encounter this type of prob... "it's the first time ur son hv a gf, and u neither wan him to neglect his studies, nor to do anything wrong.. u wan both of us to succeed first, b4 any other things... u didn wan either of us to get hurt... u're worried for ur children and u felt there's a need to talk about it...." Now i feel that i've messed up everything... "i'm digging my own grave" it might have coz ur family to change the perceptions of me already... and by the time i gotta explain, it might be too late.... now, they might even tink twice b4 making any remarks... I'm tinking these lotx~ this is jus the way i am... SORRY!! I still love you... and i'll do anything for u... To take my first step, is to overcome the fear in me, and to have confidence in myself... but how can i make it to success when i'm some what lost?? MIsS u LoTx!!